Friday, April 7, 2023

My Take on Jesus Christ Superstar

From: Spotify

My Dad brought me and my sibs back in the 70s to see this film in the big screen. I fell asleep.  I am the youngest of 7 children and my older sibs liked it and even bought a vinyl record of it.  Growing up, as they would play it from time to time, I learned to like the songs.  These three are my favorites among them:

- Gethsemane

- Heaven on their Minds

and of course, the most popular track of them all:

- I Don't Know How to Love Him 

I would listen to them and the entire album (now on Spotify, where I got that image from) even during off-Lenten season.  



Now 50 years later, in the season on Lent 2023, I got back to see the entire film and this time I was wide awake.  It is a Rock Opera on Theater on Film.  It's got the elements of Theater in terms of its Music and Dance.  For its Film elements. the shots of the ruins of Israel and other deserts of the Middle East were just exquisite.  The acting and the singing, of course, completed this masterpiece. That is not to mention yet, the wardrobe.  You will see that the fashion then is back now. Yes, it tells the story of Jesus Christ from 2000 years ago showing the current fashion. 

The reason, I guess, why I fell asleep as a kid when I first watched it, was because everything is in song. Maybe I was lullabied, I don't know.  But as I watched it now in my more mature years, I got to appreciate where Andrew Lloyd Weber got his inspiration.  There is so much emotion to gather from the Life of Christ to create powerful Music.  

The Agony in the Garden is one such powerful moment where Jesus was anticipating the suffering He was about to go through. The WHYYYYYYYY in the song, "Gethsemane" really pierced my heart.  I felt the anguish the human Jesus was going through - the question why He has to die and at the same time having to accept it.  Ted Neeley really hit that high note with the right amount of anger.  In Tagalog, we call it "ANGAS".   Mr Neeley is my rock star! 

Another notable moment was the heated exchange between Judas and Jesus in the last supper.  Next time you witness two people fighting, listen more closely and you will hear them actually singing! Carl Anderson, who played Judas and Ted Neeley were doing just that! Really, what best way to release your passion!  Through music and song!  

From the Twitter of Ted Neeley



Heaven on Their Mind is a Carl Anderson piece and starts the story of this film. He goes "JESUUUUUUSSS!!! You started to believe, the things they say of you, you really do believe this talk of God is truuueeeee"  I particularly like the red outfit they put on him.  It really shows the negative/antagonistic character of Judas. 

Carl Anderson has passed away in 2004 of leukemia.  He was only 58. 





Next, Yvonne Elliman. While the film had a lot of masculine and fierce characters, the performance of Yvonne as Mary Magdalene gave it its feminine touch.  Although Mother Mary per se was not represented in the film, this character performed the role of the one who took care of Jesus during the time he was approaching His death. Doing that, she goes "I've been changed, yes, really changed" You will also see her the one affected and devastated as Jesus was sentenced to die. 

There.  I've talked about my 3 favorite songs from the film but it should not discount the other scenes.  I so enjoyed the Herod scene with Josh Mostel, the Pilate scene with Barry Dennen (RIP+) etc etc etc. There is so much more to say but I think I should already end this review and I hope you who are reading this are moved to watch it even if it's not Lent anymore. 

Jesus Christ Superstar
Produced and Directed by Norman Jewison
Music and Lyrics by Andrew Lloyd Weber and Tim Rice 


Sunday, January 18, 2015

JESUS CHRIST DELIVERED, my insights on the visit of of Pope Francis to the Philippines 2015

Common Photo grabbed from Facebook
What kind of blessing do we really want?  A million bucks? How about a shining a career? Romance? Travel around the world?  We all want those blessings and they are all good to make the most out of life.

Recently, I received a blessing that encompasses all that.  It will not just give me all that. It will make me a better person and maybe even give me more.  I was blessed by Pope Francis.  He blessed me by extending the life of Jesus Christ to me. Jesus Christ is the blessing and Pope Francis brought Him to me. 

We did try
No, I wasn’t able to see him in the flesh like the many others.  I was not able to attend the Grand Sunday Holy Mass he gave. We did attempt and I don’t want to say that we were unsuccessful. I want to say that it was just hard because of the crowd and the weather. We weren’t equipped physically as the others.  Biel, my daughter, had a bit of colds.

Filipinos are still on a “Pope Francis high” as I write this. He may still be up in the air back to the Vatican. The challenge now is getting back to reality.  Is this all hype?  Have we really allowed ourselves to be transformed into the likeness of Christ that the Pope intended in this visit?

We need to zero in now into our personal lives.  I will take on the courage and share some personal bits of my own life. How will I now apply the blessing of Pope Francis?


I have tried imagining a Yolanda-like storm hitting my place. I could not. Going to other catastrophes, tragedies or trials in other places and times, I do not know how I will be able to handle the kind of catastrophe that hit the Tianzon family on December 31, 2014.  Fire burned their house in Las PiƱas to a total ruin and killing all of them except Mr. Bunny Tianzon, the father.  I do not know how I will be able to handle cancer, after seeing a friend of mine in skin and bones, balding and almost dead lying in her bed.  I am not suffering anything like that and my health, thank God, is in good condition.  

So how do I relate to the message of Pope Francis to the Yolanda victims? 

Many of you, my friends know, my marital situation.  I can say that I am married single.  Edward, my husband has not abandoned me and especially the kids but we are silently estranged.  I know this is not a unique situation now to many marriages and should that be a consolation on my part?  It’s hard. Yes, I do suffer and I’m sure a lot of wives and mothers in this same condition also do.  We just don’t demonstrate it.  It hurts when Edward makes me feel low, when he doesn’t talk to me, when he puts on a sour face when I am around.  I feel like the lowest person in the world.  I suffer more when my kids are affected.  

I know what I shared is absolutely nothing to what the Yolanda survivors are going through.  Nevertheless, this homily hit the core for everyone who suffers whatever kind of pain.

“Jesus is Lord and He never lets us down” 

“And beside the cross was His mother….In the moments when we have so much pain, when we no longer understand anything, all we can do is grab hold of her hand firmly. And say, Mom, as a child does to a mother, when he or she feels fear.”

I do not mean to put Edward in a bad light.  If I cannot seem to bring Jesus Christ to Him, maybe I should just bring Mama Mary to him. I will remain patient like how a Mother does to an erring child. 


This message hits me in my career. I am in my late 40’s and I am still soul-searching. I told that to my friend Mina and she thinks that I am joking.  I am not.  I look at my contemporaries and see them all accomplished.  They are Vice Presidents of big companies, they have their own booming businesses, they are in high positions in government.  Me, I don’t have anything stable. I don’t know how to say it but I see myself as a loser.

“For this the Gospel offers us a serene way forward: using the three languages of the mind, heart and hands – and to use them in harmony. What you think, you must feel and put into effect. Your information comes down to your heart and you put it into practice. Harmoniously. What you think, you feel and you do. Feel what you think and feel what you do. Do what you think and what you feel. The three languages…”

This message does not tell me, “No, you are not a loser”.  It talks me as if I am still in my youth full of hope and advises me what to do moving forward.  In all my endeavours, I shall always remember the three stages… think, feel and finally, DO.  They must all be in harmony and done well. How can I be a loser now?

While I am in this high, I don’t intend to get down.  I will process this by thinking, feeling then DOING.  With Jesus as my Lord, He will never let me down.

Thank you so much Pope Francis. This is long already. I have so much more to say, but let the rest be between Jesus and me.

FULL TEXT of the Message of Pope Francis to the Filipino youth, UST, January 18, 2015

courtesy of Rappler
Dear Young Friends,
When I speak spontaneously I do it in Spanish, because I don’t know the English language. May I do it? Thank you very much. This Fr Mark, a good translator.
As translated from Spanish by Msgr Mark Gerard Miles
First of all, a sad piece of news. Yesterday, as Mass was about to start, a piece of scaffolding fell and, upon falling, hit a young woman who was working in the area and she died. Her name is Kristel. She worked for the organization preparing for that Mass. She was 27 years old, young like yourselves. She worked for Catholic Relief Services as a volunteer. I would like all of you who are young like her to pray for a moment in silence with me and then we will pray to Our Mother in Heaven. Let us pray.
Leads prayer of Hail Mary…
Let us also pray for her parents. She was an only child. Her mother is coming from Hong Kong and her father is here in Manila.
Leads prayer of Our Father…
It is a joy for me to be with you this morning. I greet each of you from the heart, and I thank all those who made this meeting possible. During my visit to the Philippines, I wanted in a particular way to meet with young people, to listen to you and to talk with you. I want to express the love and the hopes of the Church for you. And I want to encourage you, as Christian citizens of this country, to offer yourselves passionately and honestly to the great work of renewing your society and helping to build a better world.
In a special way, I thank the young people who have offered words of welcome to me.
To Jun and Leandro Santos II and to Rikki, thank you very much. There’s only a very small representation of girls among you. Too little. Women have much to tell us in today’s society. Sometimes we are too “machistas” and we don’t allow enough space to women. But women can see things from a different angle to us, with a different eye. Women are able to pose questions we men are unable to understand. Look out for this fact: she is the only one who has put a question for which there is no answer. She couldn’t put it into words but expressed it with tears. So when the next pope comes to Manila, please let there be more girls.
I thank you Jun for talking about your experience so bravely. As I said, the heart of your question has no reply. Only when we too can cry about the things you said can we come close to answering that question. Why do children suffer so much? Why do children suffer? When the heart is able to ask itself and weep, then we can understand something. There is a worldly compassion which is useless. You expressed something like this. It’s a compassion that makes us put our hands in our pockets and give something to the poor. But if Christ had had that kind of compassion he would have greeted a couple of people, given them something, and walked on. But it was only when he was able to cry that he understood something of our lives. Dear young boys and girls, today’s world doesn’t know how to cry. The emarginated people, those left to one side, are crying. Those who are discarded are crying. But we don’t understand much about these people in need. Certain realities of life we only see through eyes cleansed by our tears. I invite each one here to ask yourself: have I learned how to weep? Have I learned how to weep for the emarginated or for a street child who has a drug problem or for an abused child? Unfortunately there are those who cry because they want something else.
This is the first thing I want to say: let us learn how to weep as she has shown us today and let us not forget this lesson. The great question of why so many children suffer, she did this in tears. The response that we can make today is: let us really learn how to weep.
In the Gospel, Jesus cried for his dead friend, he cried in his heart for the family who lost its child, for the poor widow who had to bury her son. He was moved to tears and compassion when he saw the crowds without a pastor. If you don’t learn how to cry, you cannot be a good Christian. This is a challenge. When they posed this question to us, why children suffer, why this or that tragedy occurs in life – our response must be either silence or a word that is born of our tears. Be courageous, don’t be afraid to cry.
Then came Leandro Santos II and his question. He also posed a good question: the world of information. Today, with so many means of communication we are overloaded with information. Is that bad? No. It is good and can help. But there is a real danger of living in a way that we accumulate information. We have so much information but maybe we don’t know what to do with that information. So we run the risk of becoming museums of young people who have everything but not knowing what to do with it. We don’t need young museums but we do need holy young people. You may ask me: Father, how do we become saints? This is another challenge. It is the challenge of love. What is the most important subject you have to lean at university? What is most important subject you have to learn in life? To learn how to love. This is the challenge that life offers you: to learn bow to love. Not just to accumulate information without knowing what to do with it.. But through that love let that information bear fruit.
For this the Gospel offers us a serene way forward: using the three languages of the mind, heart and hands – and to use them in harmony. What you think, you must feel and put into effect. Your information comes down to your heart and you put it into practice. Harmoniously. What you think, you feel and you do. Feel what you think and feel what you do. Do what you think and what you feel. The three languages...
Can you repeat this? To think. To feel. To do. And all in harmony...
Real love is about loving and letting yourself be loved. It’s harder to let yourself be loved than to love. That is why it is so difficult to come to the perfect love of God. We can love Him but we must let ourselves be loved by Him. Real love is being open to the love that comes to you. The love that surprises us. If you only have information you are not surprised. Love surprises because it opens a dialogue of loving and being loved. God is a God of surprise because He loved us first. God awaits us to surprise us. Let us allow ourselves to be surprised by God. Let us not have a computer psychology that makes us think we know it all. All answers on computers - but no surprises. The challenge of love. God reveals himself through surprises.

Think of St Matthew. He was a good banker. But he let people down because he imposed taxes against his own people to give to the Romans. He was full of money. Jesus passed by, looked at him and said: “Follow me”. He couldn’t believe it. It you have the opportunity, see Caravaggio’s picture of him. Jesus calls him and those around say: “Him? He betrayed us! He is no good! He hoards money!” But the surprise of being loved overcomes him. The day when Matthew left home for work, saying goodbye to his wife, he couldn’t imagine he would come home without money and have to prepare a feast for the one who loved him first. God surprised Matthew more than the money he had. Allow yourselves to be surprised by God. Don’t be afraid of surprises. They shake the ground beneath our feet and make us insecure, but they move us forward in the right direction.
Real love allows you to spend yourselves, to leave your pockets empty. Think of St Francis who died with empty hands and empty pockets but with a full heart. Remember: no young museums, and wise young people. To be wise use three languages: think well, feel well and do well. And to be wise allow yourselves to be surprised by the love of God. That will guarantee a good life.
Rikki came up with a good plan for what we can do in life with all young people’s activities.
Thank you, Rikki, for what you and your friends do. I’d like to ask you a question: you and your friends help others but do you allow yourselves to receive? Answer in your heart.
In the Gospel we just heard, there was a beautiful phrase, for me the most important of all: Jesus looked at the young man and he loved him. When you see Rikki and his friends you love them because they do good things. Jesus says something very important: you lack one thing. Let us listen to this word in silence: you lack only one thing.
What is it that I lack? To all of you who Jesus loves so much, I ask you: do you allow others to give you from their riches to you who have not? The Sadducees, Doctors of the Law, in the time of Jesus, gave much to the people, they taught the people the law, but they never allowed the people to give them something. Jesus had to come to allow himself to feel compassion and to be loved.
How many young people among you are like this? You know how to give and yet you have ever learned how to receive. You still lack one thing. Become a beggar. This is what you still lack. Learn how to beg. This isn’t easy to understand. To learn how to beg. To learn how to receive with humility. To learn to be evangelized by the poor, by those we help, the sick, orphans, they have so much to give us. Have I learned how to beg? Or am I self-sufficient? Do I think I need nothing? Do you know you too are poor? Do you know your own poverty and your need to receive? Do you let yourselves be evangelized by those you serve? This is what helps you mature in your commitment to give to others. Learn how to open your hand from your very own poverty.
There are some points I have prepared. The first, I already told you: to learn how to love and to learn how to be loved. There is a challenge which is a challenge of u. This is not only because your country more than many others is likely to be seriously affected by climate change. There is the challenge, the concern for the environment. And finally, there is the challenge for the poor, to love the poor, with your bishops. Do you think of the poor? Do you feel with the poor? Do you do something for the poor? Do you ask the poor to give you the wisdom they have?
This is what I wish to tell you all today. Sorry if I haven’t read what I prepared for you but there is a phrase that consoles me: that reality is superior to ideas. The reality that you have is superior to the paper I have in front of me.
Thank you very much. Pray for me!